We don't always expect the unexpected

And here's the last week of December. I was actually planning to post up a super super long post about the entire year of 2009 and what happened and yadayadayada. December is a delightful month. You're on holiday, you get to do whatever you want and of course, there are occasions. You celebrate birthdays (fine, you get to celebrate birthdays every month, but yeah, birthdays), there's the Mega Sale (ok, not like Malaysia's sale is ever that great, but still, you get things at a slightly lower price), Christmas (so, you spend on presents, but I didn't =D), Boxing day (er, is there anything at all to celebrate?), and finally New Year's Eve, where we all sit down and countdown to the new year.

So with these many celebrations, you start planning. Yes, planning is good. Everything goes well and you are rewarded. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. However, no matter how much you plan, sometimes, things can go wrong. Or some would say, plans would change. And sometimes, entirely. And THAT is what I hate, but sometimes, you have no choice but to go through it.

Hospitals are depressing. Maybe except for the occasional births, but mainly, depressing. I never liked it when my parents checked me into the hospital for dengue. Hated my entire week there. The walls are all bland and dull. Uniforms of the nurses and other staffs are also muted colours except for the doctors, they get nice, white coats. The smell of blood, vomit, urine, and whole lot of other stuff are constantly around you and you just never seem to get used to it. In the emergency room, you see machines all around. Some hooked to patients and some just waiting to be used on the next patient that comes in. You see boxes of unopened packets of syringes, stacked up and that definitely freaked me out. You walk by patients. Some were resting, some were getting their stitches done, and some covered in blood. Then you walk into the ward and you start hearing laughter, phones ring, busy footsteps and all of a sudden, cries. More like yelling, mourning and crying all at the same time. It all started with a cry of pain, followed by a cry of panic and after a couple of nurses and a doctor and some yelling later, there was a cry of sadness and grief. You shiver and you know what had just happened.

Environments in hospitals aren't like what you see on Grey's or House or Scrubs. Doctors are never like the ones you see on tv. Those you see in the media are actors and actresses and extras, not doctors. You don't see doctors comforting their patients and you don't see anyone stopping the elevators just to make out. It is their job to save lives and not to pity or empathize the patients. So you wanna be a doctor? Be immune to emotions first. Ah, what do I know, I don't plan on going into the medical field anyway. Just ranting.

It is somehow an unspoken thing within a family but everyone understands it. You just keep it to yourself. One person falls sick and all of a sudden, calls are made and the response to coming back home is better than the ones during chinese new year. It is a small family reunion but not for a happy occasion. We sit by and take turns and watch over the sick. Some cry and you cant help but to shed a tear too and offer a hug. Sometimes you feel so helpless that all you could do is call the person and just pat their shoulder or hold their hand without saying a word.

So, everything doesn't always go as planned. And it just sucks. But what can you do? You just somehow bear with all of it and live life.

Make your resolutions, don't plan every single thing out, let life be an adventure. Happy New Year everyone.


Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

And it's our day

Doing house chores and running around like Cinderella seemed a pretty horrible way to start off a morning. Nevertheless, after doing the dishes, taking clothes from the washing machine to dry them in the sun and cleaning the dining table, I finally took a nice cold shower and got dressed. What ran through my mind was what was going to happen later in the afternoon until at night.

I dressed up in the same clothes as I wore before and let my hair down loose, smiling to myself. I got into the car and I smile once more but this time to you. We hung out at the same place, went to the same restaurant and did the things we would usually do, except going to a movie, well, there weren't any tickets left.

The afternoon passed, evening came, then night. You sent me home, kissed me on the cheek and hugged me goodbye and drove off.

It wasn't exactly what I had expected in the afternoon. No, it wasn't more than what I expected. It was what I didn't expect. Honestly, that wasn't the best date I have ever been on, but I felt happy. Words can definitely express how I feel but I rather not type it all out. That picture, keeps me smiling, knowing we are still happy with each other.

Happy seez-mons-sary love!


Toodles with lots of love,
Alanna the Banana

Million Little Stars

Dear readers,

Forgive me for my tiny obsession. =DDDD

One of the many pictures in GQ mag. I so need to buy that issue.

Wet t-shirt competition, he wins them all~

And he has a freaking R8! A white one. HOMG! LAVE~




I'm ogling at the car now.

Awww... That's just sweet

I apologize if I have loads of post about Lautner, like I said, tiny obsession right now. =D Yes, tiny.

All pictures, credits to Just Jared and other gossip sites. =D


Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

In This Dream

I know it's like 3 am right now but I just couldn't really sleep. So I was blog hopping and there I was staring at Sarah's blog and there he was in Sarah's blog. I couldn't help it. I don't fancy the idea of the Twilight series turning into movies. Hmm, I read the books earlier, couldn't help but not like the series. But anyway, I did catch the New Moon. For 2 reasons. To laugh at Edward. And to look at Jacob. Taylor Lautner. <3

*drools*

*sigh*

This is hot. *faints*

And if he is really going out with Taylor Swift, I APPROVE!

Seriously, he is fine. Sarah, you are so right, the lip biting is hot. Sorry love, couldn't help it. =D Forgive me if I can't take my eyes of the screen.


Toodles with a new eye candy,
Alanna the Banana


P.S. you'll always be my eye candy. Lautner is like, a second one. =D

In The Middle Of The Night

It's been quite awhile since I surfed the net. I've been bumming around so much, I don't even lift the cover of my Mac to check Facebook no more. I guess I'm not a Mukabuku addict. =D
Anyway, just wanna make a special shoutout to someone. Though, it is quite a belated one. Better late than never right?

To the youngest (and sluttiest) Kaki in the group,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY

FIONA KEE

I was in the same class with her in Form 1 and I never talked to her much. Except when she first came, I asked her how was Cempaka and asked about my friends there. I really thought she was such a sweet girl. (Girl, don't go all smiling now. Cause I know you are. We all know you're not that 'sweet' =D)

Anyway, time passed and before both of us knew it, we got into college. And there we were, placed in the same class. She stuck with Kat, I stuck to Kavi. Mok, well, he was trying to make his new nickname work but epic phail la. He still got stuck with Mok. hehe.

So this girl, with the new hair colour (you look better with it), still seemed quiet to me. Till one fine day in February, she came clubbing with Kat and I. And there she was, dressed all suitable for clubbing, attitude fierce (and got even fiercer later in the year and worse when she is drunk. =P just had to put that in), and my perspective of her, changed. And now, she's one of the most lovable friends I could ever have.

She was there for me. And I hope I was there for her too even though I know I was basically almost always quite out of the picture. I know this girl, went through one hell of an emotional roller coaster ride and girl, I'm proud of you for making it through. <3 And boy was this girl harsh with her comments and opinions. She may be so but you know she has nothing but good intentions. She does, however give comments on unknown people, ok, not that good of an intention but they are sure as hell funny to listen to. =D Call her a fashionista people, cause she really has good eye for it. She does the FINEST DIY outfits, using the simplest things and making it look like you bought it from an expensive retail store. No kidding, she's good. And she's pursuing in the fashion industry. We're so proud of you fifi, we know you're good and you can definitely be one of the best! We're supporting you babe. Oh, did I mention she looks like a party girl? Alright, no need to state the obvious but those of you who might not know her, you take one look at her and your brain starts on the primacy effect (only psych students would get this, i guess?). She may look like one party girl, ok, she is one, but she is a nerd. Yeah, she is. I don't wanna get started on how she is in college. I sit next to her, I know. =D She's fantastic in Econs and this is why she is going into Marketing. Fashion marketing that is. Though, she hates Accounts. lol What I love about her? She funny, smart, hot, understanding, a great friend and other nice things I'm secretly jealous of. I love you Fiona and I know you love me too. xoxo I'll see you soon slut. 


 Toodles with love, 
Alanna the Banana

Coming Undone

It's been a year since I kept this blog alive. So here's to wishing my baby Happy Birthday!

HAPPY 1st BIRTHDAY DRAMA QUEN!!!!!

I'm actually proud of keeping this girl alive. (Well done Banana. =D)

Last post was about artwork as I was much too lazy to come up with something to blog about. So I've decided, this post, is going to be utterly useless. I'm not like those people who can just stop at Happy Birthday. I have to go on and on. I don't know. It's like this urge just to keep typing even though it's total crap. Ok, so I'm done crapping. =D


Toodles with lave,
Alanna the Banana

P.S. - I LAVE BAD ROMANCE!!! LAVE LAVE LAVE!!!!

Now that you're closer

Got more pieces to show you guys!!!!!! =DDDD
Since the hols have started and now the high school kids have joined us, malls are starting to get crowded and it is quite annoying to see them around. No offense. Anyway, I just got the drive to cut more pieces out. <3

You guys have played the game before. You probably know it already.

Those are her wings. The lil circles are beads with feathers attached.


The complete piece =D


Chose a grey background she represents the Air element.

Another one? I'll just show you the pictures. =D

Her hair was pretty much hell to cut. Chinese type of bun.

Yeap, she's the Water element.

Her dress is awesome!!!

She has webbed hands. And it looks like she's showing the middle finger.

Chose the blue for her. =D



The four fairies!! =D
I call that a collection!

Toodles with loads of love,
Alanna the Banana

Forgotten Dreams

It was one of those days where you woke up knowing that if you were going to have a great day or otherwise. It was the latter for me. Showering the pang of sadness just didn't seem to cut it. Sitting under the shower for at least an hour, closing my eyes and just listening to the water running down from my already-wet hair to my ears, all over my face and to my neck just seemed to make everything worse. The soft sound of running water over my ears would have brought peace and serenity but instead it somehow just deepened my emotions. I got out from the shower with a feeling overwhelming me that today is not just an ordinary day.

I picked up The Notebook from my table and start flipping through the pages. Names of the characters that were once unknown to me now seemed so familiar. Through experience, I've always wanted to watch movies that were based on books. Harry Potter was the first ever movie I've watched with a tied-in fiction book. Big mistake naturally, you would compare it with the book, and setting your hopes so high that you'd eventually be disappointed after catching the movie. Nevertheless, I still watch the series. But then on, I learnt that we should appreciate both the book and the movie. And today, I watch all the movies adapted from the books first and read the books later on when I have the character's faces seared into my mind.

Reading a book is an amazing thing. Placing faces of characters into your imagination, moving them like puppets the way you want them to, making them speak the words written in the dialogue, portraying emotions, as if all of this was happening right in front of you but you are just an invisible figure in the scene. You see what the characters see, you smell what they smell, you feel what they feel. Every word you read, you start filling in the details in your imagination and the thing is what makes it so amazing, all of this, happens right at that moment, almost immediately.

I've now rambled on like I always do. Somehow I just like random things popping into my head, it makes it more, well, it makes my life or rather my mind a more interesting place. So I take the book and start reading about Noah and Allie and their love. One chapter was what I said to myself. One chapter became to one more chapter and that became to one more page. Soon I've past half the spine of the book. The only reason why I occupied myself in reading was not only because the story was interesting but also because to avoid thinking. I just had to fill my mind with someone else's story instead my own. I stopped reading just for lunch. Eating with my parents is not as easy as it seems when you're feeling the contrary of what they were feeling. They were smiling but I was just sad. I tried to smile, but anyone could tell that there wasn't a hint of sincerity or the slightest bit of joy in it. They know you're upset but they decide to wave it off and let you handle it on your own which I appreciated pretty much. I decide to hide it all away even though I knew that they suspected my woe.

Coming back into my room, checking Facebook and Twitter is now a daily or simply an every 5-minute routine. This time, rain falls and I stop reading. The one thing I avoided an hour ago was now being embraced. Tears filled my eyes to the brim and as they were about to fall, I quickly wiped them off and forced myself to suck it up because I couldn't bear to shed another tear this week. I found myself reminiscing the earlier months and thinking how I happy and exuberant I was. I relinquished all worries and nothing else could make me more ecstatic than I was. The more I thought of it, the more I wanted it, and the more I didn't want to let go of the bliss I used to have, not ever, at least not now.

I played the keys of the piano now covered in a layer of dust. The C-major chord gave a joyful sound as all major chords were to supposed to give. A D-Minor was the sound most appropriate to what I feel now. Tchaikovsky's Chant d'automne never sounded more beautiful and sad all at once. One song was all I need to know how I really felt. Tears rolled on my cheek as I felt. And it was after the song when I played that last note, when I felt numb. Numb to the core. And everything else didn't seem to matter.

I knew I was slumped in deep dejection and I believe when one is sad, no one else can feel their sorrow. Here I am, writing this irrelevant post, not for the others but for myself, to remind myself that writing out my melancholy emotion can take things off my mind. The moment I type the last word of this post, ending it with my name, I know I would be my own self once more. But I may be wrong because I've never felt so lonely in my life until now.


Toodles,
Alanna

I don't belive in Goodbyes

So Mok tells me to update my blog. Classmates having the regular crap talk on msn in mass convos. My girls trying to cheer each other up. I sit and just stare and decide to watch transformers with my parents. Call me ignorant, call me a bitch, call me a ditcher, I don't care.

I sit in front of my laptop on my lap (please don't go on about how putting the laptop on your lap is bad), I have Estrella's Stay on loop, and I just don't know what to think anymore. So many emotions, so little time to feel them all. Good news, bad news, sad ones, happy ones. Tell me how am I supposed to feel them all?

Last day of college tomorrow, or rather today since it's 12.43am on my clock right now. Everybody is upset about it. Msn personal messages, twitter and facebook are all about the last day of college tomorrow for us SAM students. Yeah, I don't seem upset about it. I don't take it seriously. I know it is the "last" day but saying goodbye is not really my thing. I had trouble realizing I was leaving high school. It was only until March it finally hit me. I'm not saying that this ain't going to hit me till like next year but yeah, it's not really what I do.

This post ain't going to be how I still remember my first day in college cause for goodness sake, you've probably heard it a MILLION times before. It's also not about reminiscing the good and bad times of it. Cause we've all said that and we still remember it. Maybe some other time I'll write about that.

Well, in reality, you're all upset about leaving college. You say I'm going to miss this place, yeah we all said that when we left primary school and secondary school, well you are right, college is a miss-able place. But how long will you say, you will miss this place? You're going to miss your friends? Well, you don't have to miss them, you can MAKE the effort by calling them up and say you wanna hang out. Miss your lecturers? Ah, you said you were going to miss some of your high school teachers last year, but seriously, have you ever given a thought about them before someone brings up the topic about high school? I can honestly say, no. I only said I missed them when I didn't understand a shit thing the lecturer was teaching us.

I'm not trying to be a bitch when all of you are feeling sad. Cause I don't really believe in goodbyes.

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The above post was what I was suppose to continue but I just decided to leave it until there. I just really didn't know how to let my feelings flow. I know most you guys expect me to write a nice post about how I am going to miss college, the friends, the fun, the ping pong, and stuff. But the thing is, I can't? I am going to miss it all but if I were to start writing, god knows how long the post is going to be and I'll be boring half your lives away. But the main reason why I don't want to write about it, it may bring tears to all of your eyes.

What seemed so far away in the beginning seems to be nearing us all. We're facing our exams in a weeks time and we also face the decision we have to make, choosing uni's to further our studies. Some of us have chosen, applied and are ready to go next year. Some of us, are just left undecided, and this is the category I belong to. Undecided category.

So maybe another reason why I don't want to write about it is maybe I just want things to stay as they were. Me waking up for college and changing into outfits, going for lessons, talk with my girls, play pool, eat and go home and talk to my boyfriend. I want things to stay this way cause it was easy. Sure we had trouble at times but there was no reason why we couldn't work our way around it. I want things to stay this way because I didn't need to make decisions, tough ones anyway. I want things to stay this way because I've made friends that carries out the motto, Girls over Bros. I want things to stay this way because I've had so much fun and I didn't have to worry about anything else except sitting for exams. I want things to stay this way because college is the best thing that ever happened to me and it changed me inside out. I want things to stay this way because I don't want to change again.

Within one year, 10 months I would say, I have changed into a person I would have only imagined of. Being myself was what I am in college. I didn't need to worry about what people would have said about me because we all know this year is too short to hate other people. You can definitely see how much people have changed when they go to college. Several ways.

So I'm probably boring you with my non-existent purpose post already. What I'm trying to say is, yes, leaving college has hit me. Hard. I just refuse to show it because I look horrible when I cry.


Toodles with love and tears,
Alanna the Banana

Since I'm hooked the vinegar

I love vinegar. Three days, in a row, I've been eating something with vinegar for dinner. It's absolutely fantastic! =D

There are so many movies I wanna catch!! So many I think I need to start saving money to watch them at the cinema. I have spent so much money this year itself on movies. Sometimes I watch the same show twice, sometimes three times. Please don't ask why. Watching in the cinema is totally different if you buy the dvd and watch it at home. Unless you have a tv room with a projector and all.

1. The Private Life of Pippa Lee


Winona Ryder, Blake Lively, Keanu Reeves, just to name a few. Ok, I'm not lying, I watching it because of Blake Lively and Keanu Reeves. I doubt they're lovers cause it just doesn't seem like it.

2. The Time Traveler's Wife


Ah, another love story adapted from a book. Rachel McAdam's famous for he role in the Notebook and Mean Girls is back with another romantic, emotional movie. Eric Bana is kind of old for her though. Nevertheless, it is one movie, I must watch! Preferably with girls. Cause I know I'm bound to shed a tear or two and I don't want guys to make fun of me.

3. New York, I Love You

So the new trend in Hollywood is having a big cast, names you know of from other movies. I guess He's Just Not That Into You kind of set the big-cast-romantic-comedy trend. Shia LaBeouf, Bradley Cooper, Blake Lively, Maggie Q, Natalie Portman, Orlando Bloom, Hayden Christensen, Rachel Bilson and many many more! This is a bigger cast than He's Just Not That Into You. I hope it's a good movie. It looks cool.



4. Dear John


Channing Tatum (G.I Joe, Step Up) and Amanda Seyfried (Mamma Mia). Another one of Nicholas Sparks novel. He wrote the Notebook. He makes us all cry. Star-crossed lovers, falling for each other in 2 weeks, he returns to the army, they both write letters, happy then sad then you cry. Typical story you know. And yet, I love it! And also Channing Tatum is in it! MUST WATCH!!!!!!!!!!



5. Inglourious Basterds


Did I mention I won two premiere passes to watch this movie from Fly Fm? Hur. I called in on Friday morning and I won them! Oh I didn't do anything but just say "Thank you soooo much!!!". How awesome is that? Brad Pitt is inside! Oh yeah~

6. Jeniffer's Body


Megan Fox. Need I say more?

7. Love Happens

Jennifer Aniston. Aaron Eckhart. Romance. Drama. I'll watch whatever Jennifer is in. =D

8. Pandorum


So many romantic movies and no thriller? I'm looking forward to this one. The trailer looked pretty cool. It's out and I'm expecting to catch it quite soon. =D

9. Law Abiding Citizen


Say hello to Gerard Butler once again! Busy year for him don't you think? Gamer and the Ugly Truth and now this? He may be a little too old for me, but oh my gawd, you know he just oozes sexiness. And that truth ain't ugly. =D

10. 2012


Doomsday everyone!


Those are the movies I cannot wait to catch. Though, exams are nearing. And yet I'm talking about the shows I want to watch. I'm heading for trouble. Oh well. =D


Toodles with luuuurve for vinegar,
Alanna the Banana

Here's to being 18! Cheers!

This was supposed to be posted up yesterday night, but I didn't really know how to put it in words. So I'll do it now. Here goes nothing!

To my Kaki-s.





Thank you so much for the lovely present. I ABSOLUTELY LOVE IT! even if my mom doesn't. Thank you for making it such a lovely surprise till I teared in happiness. I will not say cry because I did not do that, I teared. And I made such a commotion during Accounts class. Ma bad!
Anyway, I'm not here to thank you for the present. To all three of you, I want to say I'm sorry and thank you. Sorry for being such a brat at times, I know I haven't been spending much time with you guys. I really do wanna make it up to you. I know that I haven't been going out clubbing or joining you guys for little little gatherings. I'm sorry about all that. I will absolutely do my best to go out with all four of you to spend quality time, outside of college. We could always do the girl crying session thing again. I wanna say sorry for troubling you guys beginning of the year. Listening to my problems, rantings and et cetera, et cetara.
I do want to thank you all for being there for me. Having my back at all times. Helping me out in little things even though it troubles you. Thank you for all the wonderful times we had together. I know it's only been a year since we all got so close, but I can say the three of you have made me college life more enjoyable than what I expected it to be. Thank you for everything. I love you guys so much.


To Ton Pi and Jus,




YOU!!!!! Betch-es!!!! Have made my high school life the most interesting period EVER!! Funny shits we've been through. Man, we went through alot together didn't we. We went through puberty together, driving testSSSSSS, boys, make up experiments, and everything until up to today. Though we may be in different colleges now - well, just you Pikky, you're in a different college - we still hang out with each other and we still tell each other stuff, we worry about each other and we are still the same person as we were in high school.
Yes, we've fought but hey, I can say it has definitely made us stronger. The three of us, we're going to go through life together. I love you guys. Sorry, I hate you Ton Pi. =D


To a special someone,


I know we don't have a proper picture together yet, but SOON!! A best friend and a boyfriend in one. I am lucky betch to get someone like you. I know we only got to know each other properly, wait, know isn't the word, TALK is the one, only last year. I remember that night well. So what I'm saying is, even though we got to know each other not too long ago, we've come this far and I want to thank you for taking a chance on me. You have no idea how lucky I feel everyday.
4 months have passed and we're still practically tight. I've mentioned so many things you have done for me the previous posts so I'm not going to say it again. I just really want to thank you. For being there for me when I need you, for taking me out, paying for me meals and every single little gesture like opening the car door for me is appreciated.
Thanks for the lovely present. I will definitely use it. You know I will. I don't know what to fill it in with, probably go to Coffee Bean and fill it up with Hot choc or vanilla. And do know if you need help in anything, I'll do my best to help you out. Just not in your academic area cause we study different stuff. The shirt? I'm more than happy to pay for half of it.
I love you.


To my parents,


You've raised me into a bright, young woman. I know I may be a pain in the ass sometimes, throwing fits for no reason, making you worried ALL THE TIME even though I say I'm fine, making you angry at times and the list goes on. I would never know if I have disappointed you but I ever did make you feel that way, I'm sorry. I might not say this in front of you that I am, but do know that deep down in my heart, I'll always feel bad at the end of the day and I hope you will forgive me for everything I've said or done that might have hurt you. I do want to thank you but everything. From my education, to the little little things in life. Letting me make my own decisions, backing me up when I have a problem, coming to the rescue when I'm in trouble, everything. I might not say I love you to you, but you know I do. Very very much.
I do want to thank you for making this year's wish come true. My friends would know that I've always wanted to invest in something the day I turn 18. And now that I have had my birthday, and turned legal, I have got my wish to invest. You made it happen for me. Thank you. For that and the brand new phone and the dinner you threw for me and the love you have shown me. I love the both of you very very much.


To the rest whom I did not mention in this post, it doesn't mean you are not important. I do want to thank all of you who wished me. You do play a significant role in my life even though you just might be my classmate whom I rarely talk to, but yes, you are an important element in my life. Cause without you guys, life would be different and I wouldn't be the person who I am today. Thank you so much.


So, I guess this is my birthday post.


Toodles with lots of love from the birthday girl,
Alanna the Banana

Blue skies? NOT!

Sometimes I just can't believe that time is running out, so I'm doing my best to keep your here beside me. Do know that even if I hurt you with words, or even if I throw a fit, you will always have my heart to yourself.
Honestly, I'm still figuring out how you tolerate with me. My ramblings and rantings over the smallest things or even nothing at all, my craziness that sometimes go a tad bit out of control, my cries and downs. You were always there to listen to me, comfort me with solemn words, harsh yet gentle, making me smile in the end. Thank you.

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We had someone's special day yesterday. She is one of the happiest person I've ever seen when they're celebrating their birthday.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY NICOLE!

See, HAPPY!

7th October, her birthday and she came late. Anyway, Fi, Kat, Kavi and I gave her a top from Forever 21. She liked it, hopefully to the extend of loving it. =D

Mabel baked a cake for her. We did not have candles. Kind of weird actually to sing the birthday song. I almost said, "Blow the candles out!", only realizing there were none to blow out so bit my tongue. No, not literally.

We went out for lunch. Fi and Kat didnt join cause they went home. I was practically starving for food, so I decided to join Nicole and the rest for lunch. We went all the way to Bangsar to eat Delicious.

Mabel in the car. Alvin was driving.


At Delicious

She might not have the best birthdays ever but you could tell she had loads of fun and she was genuinely happy about everything. Anyway babe, have fun now being legal and all. =D Your party is coming up. You know we can't wait. You know you can't wait yourself. =D

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I'm too pissed off and frustrated to write what happened at the immigration center. All I can say is their system sucks and the workers there are lazy and rude. Wasted half a day. Efftards.




Toodles with not much love this time round,
Alanna the Banana

Have my heart to yourself

Sundays are relatively boring and lazy days if you don't go out. You sit at home and you laze around, reading the newspapers or just simply watching the telly. It's either really hot outside or it looks like it's about to rain. You don't feel like doing anything else because you just don't feel like it. You constantly feel like sleeping. You tend to procrastinate so much you just end up not doing anything else. I've been wasting my day away. I should be completing my psych report, to do some modification but I think I'm going to do it later. I wanted to go out but then again, I didn't feel like it cause I just felt lazy. I want to sleep though but I feel that if I do, I'd probably won't wake up until about 7pm. Like I said, wasting the day.

Anyway, I'm done with another piece! =D

Fire-y theme. A quick guess?


You'd probably know what it is now.
Her hair is lovely ain't it?


The complete piece.

This piece was much easier to cut, faster to complete too. Her hair was the only difficult part but I had alot of fun cutting out her locks and swirls. She already looked lovely without her wings and her dress. Her wings were so much easier to cut out compared to the previous fairy which made the whole thing much faster to complete.

I chose Red.

The original picture. =D

I had fun yesterday at Ikea. Eating meatballs and fries with cranberry sauce tasted so good, even though someone didn't like it. =.= Eating, talking, walking, buying, walking, reading, buying, walking and eating. Scratching too. Ouch yo. I left my phone in the car too. After getting my phone back, having to travel through the Penchala Link twice, RM4 bucks, I got home and mom offered me rice. Which I gladly accepted. Relatives were over to celebrate the Mooncake Festival. No one ate mooncakes at all. Actually, there were none in sight. Then I got a call from Kavi asking me to go over to Hartamas, which I just came back from, to join her and Kat for a round of drinks. The two K's always having fun. Anyway, I got my own round of drinks. Beer and Bailey's. =D

People are probably going to hate me when I say this, but I think I should start cutting down on the intake of food. They cost money and trust me I spend alot on food more than my clothes. With more intake on food, it goes to my thighs. As if my thighs aren't wobbly enough and filled with cellulite. Humans are never satisfied with themselves, so forgive me for my rambling on my cellulite-filled thighs. T.T

I should start on my Psych report. Soon. Maybe later. I'm hungry. *Forgets her rambles and complains on thighs.*


Toodles with hunger,
Alanna the Banana

You will always

Got back from Breakers an hour ago. We had fun playing pool. I never knew he was that good. =.= But my dear Kat beat him in the last game! That would keep his head growing bigger. Overall, I had a pretty good day with my girls. Trying on a dress which they made me reserve. =.=

I'm back into the cutting paper phase once again! No, I haven't been feeling upset or anything. Just that a few people's birthdays are coming up so I decided to pick up that blade again and start cutting. So besides cutting out cards, I'm working on a fantasy theme. unicorns and that kind of thing. Pretty things. =D

So I'm going to show you guys one piece that I've finished.

Garden-ish. Mushrooms and vines.

Wings. It ain't a butterfly. =D


Try guessing.

Well, here's the finished piece. I'm so proud of my work.

It's a fairy! A rather emo one though.


I decided to put a background for it. I chose Green.

Pretty ain't it? It was more of a garden kind of fairy so I chose a Green base. Her face is uncut cause I didn't want to risk destroying the whole picture with an ugly face. This piece took me 3 hours including of tracing on the paper and cutting out. The picture below is the original picture. Mine is just symmetrical.


I was so inspired and still am, to cut a whole collection of fairies. I've got really pretty pictures in my comp ready to be printed out and traced onto paper. I'll be posting up my work on the blog soon. =D


Toodles with inspiration and love,
Alanna the Banana

Or Even If I Throw A Fit

And once again, we're back in college. Yes, it is nice to look at your classmates and have small chat with them again. You get to eat with your friends during breaks again. You finally just catch up with each other after the holidays. Also, you face the return of exam papers, marked with red ink, with 2 digit numbers written on the front cover of the paper, together. Sweet ain't it?

What can I say? You will never get used to the feeling of nervousness with hundreds of thoughts running through your mind before you get back your results. Even after having to sit for so many common tests in this year, the feeling is always there. I hate it. Especially you know when you've screwed the paper up. One can say the Maths paper slapped us 360 degrees. Ok, maybe it slapped me across my face leaving a red mark not on my face but my report card. Which will not be mailed to my house but to my parent's office. I shall wait outside of their office in 1 to 2 weeks time for the mailman so that they don't need to know my results. Oh em gee, I wonder if you can apply for Uni without having them to look at your Maths results. =.=

Anyway, I've got a new phone! =D It's so classy and pretty. I love it. 8.1 megapixel camera, walkman, I simply adore it. I shall go play with it now to distract my mind off my maths result.


Toodles with a new phone to play with,
Alanna the Banana

Even if I hurt you with words

5 papers and a total of 14 hours or aggravation later, I am finally done with my SAM trials. It's never fun to study for exam is it? The funny thing is, you never like staying up late at night being productive with your studies but you enjoy late nights when you're having fun. During the exam week, mom said I looked like someone gave me a punch in the eye. I had GREEN eyebags! Like the ones I had during SPM. I wonder why I get eyebags so easily, losing sleep just by 2 hours. My friends stay up the whole night and they still look like they've got enough Stage 4 sleep. I'm putting Psychology into application. oh dear.

So holidays are up and I'm at my dear Ton Pi's house cause my parents decided to go down to Johor a decision which I totally refused.
This is my 3rd night. Shopping, going crazy, making fun of Mariah Carey's Obsessed, online shopping, playing with dogs, sitting in an RX8 <3, To all my Muslim friends, Selamat Hari Raya!!! May all of you get loads of green packets!! so that you can spend it on me. HUR.



Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

Do know that

I think I am stressed. Cause I seem to be blogging everyday now.

I think that I have put on weight as well. Could it be the hot vanillas I've been drinking lately?

I think I need a new wallet. My Benetton one is getting.. old.

I think my new sneakers are fantastic! The fact that daddy bought them for me, its even better! =D

I think I should be studying instead of typing now.

I think my ulcer really hurts. Stupid braces.

I think I miss hanging out with my friends.

I think I miss my Ton Pi.

I think that my car seriously needs servicing. Condition? Bad to worse.

I think I should concentrate on my Trials. I am concentrating on it, its just that sometimes my concentration sways to Gerard Butler.

I think Gerard Butler is H.O.T.! *melts*

I think the movie Gamer was freaking awesome. Catch it. Really.

I think wearing shorts to the mall just now was a mistake. Froze in the cinemas.

I think I need to sleep.

I think waking up at 5.30am to sit for an exam at 7am, is ridiculous.

I think whoever set the time of the test in Australia was being biased.

I think I should go wash up now.

I think this feels like a Psychoanalysis therapy.

I think if the psychoanalyst were to walk out of the room while the client is still rambling, the client wouldn't notice.

I think I've been psycho-ing myself too much.

I think I might take Psych as a course.

I think I want to go to Melbourne U. Cause I think it looks so pretty. =D

I think I should really go to bed now. Eye lids are so heavy. They must be lifting weights or something.



I think I wouldn't mind watching Gamer again. Let's do DVD!

I think I would want to watch Butler in The Ugly Truth.



I think I would want Butler to be my butler. Shirtless. All the time.

I think by the time I can afford to have Butler to be my butler, he'd be old. And I would be old. Ew.

I think I should wake up early tomorrow.

I think I'm going to miss him. I WILL miss him. *It's only for 5 days betch. Trials!!*


Toodles with lots of thinking,
Alanna the Banana

Beside me

It took just ONE phone call to just change my perspective of things. I might not know how it feels to be in her shoes right now, or how much pain she's going through, or how she's going to wake up the next day feeling something is missing and that something and someone can never come back to her because there's nothing she can about it. I might not be close enough to lend her a hug or to send my condolences right now but what I can do now is to just let everybody know how much they should appreciate their loved ones at this moment and not take them for granted because in a split second, everything can change.

You might just hear stories just like that all the time, or go through the lines above countless of times saying that we should appreciate people and all. You're probably going to read this post and probably think that epiphany has just struck within you and you should start going to people love and start telling them you love them. But you should realize that situation above, it has never happened to you yet. Even if you have experienced it, you've moved on and you've even probably taken someone for granted right now. It has never happened to me either, but what I'm doing here is to really do my best to turn things around and change a part of me; taking people for granted.

Your parents, your friends, your boyfriend or your girlfriend, your brother, your sister, be it whoever, you've been mad at them before, you've gotten into arguments, you've taken them for granted. Little things or major problems that made you angry or sad, you know deep down they don't really mean it. Sometimes, arguments can go on for days or weeks or sometimes even months, and sometimes, they might even just go on unresolved. Why live in anger? Why live with such torture to your heart? Imagine the other person left the world while you were still mad at him or her. Imagine that you'll be in so much pain and guilt and sorry for not just admitting you were wrong, or sorry for avoiding that person for a long time just because she wouldn't lend you her textbook, or whatever. Imagine that you wouldn't be able to forgive yourself. Imagine that you could have compromised and that person would have gone peacefully without having so much anger and sadness in them. Imagine. All that.

But I can't. You can't. No one can until they lose someone.

So what can we do? Well, it's entirely up to you how you want to show your appreciation and love to someone. Just realize how important they are to you and what they mean to you now.

About the last post? Scratch the entire thing. I don't need him to bring me to prom. I finally realize that if I'm still in a relationship with him right now, I'm contented with that. To talk to him everyday, be it just one text or a simple call, it's enough. Prom? Just see me before I leave the house and I'll call you when the slow dance comes on. =D

I won't say that everything is going to be alright because it's not. When you get through all of this, you'll be stronger. Girl, you will get through all of this with your family and friends beside you. Even though he might not be there physically anymore, know that the memories of him in your heart is what keeps him alive to you.

Rest in peace.


Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

To keep you here

I've been noticing a trend in my blog lately. Blogging a night before a test. You have no idea, how stressed out I am. SO stressed out, I need to blog it out. What an excuse. =.=

I have 2 more weeks till Trials come. I have YET to study ANYTHING at all. I have 4 subjects to thoroughly go through. I have presentations, reports and tests all lined up for the next week and I am still here. Blogging about how stressful SAM life is. It sucks. I probably should have taken A Levels. Then again, I wouldn't meet my crazy classmates or have all those good times with them. Oh well, no regrets. =D

Back to studying Accounts? Is there anything to study for anyway? It's just reading right? Right? right?


Toodles with stress,
Alanna the Banana

So I'm doing my best

Why is it that I always find myself blogging a day before a test or a major exam? Can I not concentrate? Psych test tomorrow. And my handwritten notes, all written neatly with coloured pens, are WET. YES WET!!! OH MAI GATT! Thank god its just like a corner, and I still can see the writings but the ink is all smudged. What is so pretty is now, blotchy. =.=

Oh, speaking of tests, we had a quiz today. Pop quiz. MERDEKA QUIZ! Sorry, KUIZ! Seriously, I didnt know like half of the paper. Ok, I lied, 3/4 of the paper. Fortunately, everything is all in objective and it's not counted in any our of internal. But if we get the highest score, I think we get a prize. The boys in my class reckons the prize is a poster of our Prime Minister, or our Agong. Or a place in the upcoming parade. I am so not Malaysian after doing that quiz. I don't think I deserved to be called a Malaysian. The only questions I knew how to answer was, "Who was the first Malaysian to break through into the US fashion industry?" - Zang Toi (It's in the moral text book in Form 5!!!) and "Which is the largest man-made lake in Malaysia?" - Tasik Kenyir. Whatever, I just like living in the country where food is abundant!!! <3 *Repeats to self* Carl Rogers' view on personality - Person's basic tendency is to actualise, maintain and enhance life.


Ah! UP is FINALLY here! Pixar's supposedly BEST movie! The trailer is so cute. =D



I cannot wait to watch it actually. I wanna watch it with my Daddy! Daddy is a really big fan of Pixar. He finds the characters so adorable and interesting and the storylines are always out of the ordinary and they are REALLY REALLY GOOD! Daddy likes them so much, he is willing to buy the original DVD if he likes a particular movie, like A Bug's Life. I find it a little too crazy but oh well! He's my partner in crime when it comes to Pixar!

But daddy has no time these days. So I might have to watch it with someone else. Oh well. Whatever it is, Daddy will be watching it with me sooner or later on DVD. =D

Alrighty then! Back to going psycho! =D


Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

That time is running out

I'm supposed to be studying for Moral. Yes, my little people who are still in high school, you still have Moral to study for, if you plan to continue college, that is. No, it's not like SPM where you have to memorize 36 nilai-s and vomit it out the next day with the proper keywords and all. Ugh, hated those days. This time its in English. Yay, you might think. It's not. It's STILL moral. But this time, you just read the notes and just understand it or pretend to understand it and just write down long elaborated answers into your exam papers. And you don't have stupid nilai-s to memorise. And guess what? There is only ONE moral paper. You just have to pass it. =D

Dad still thinks its rubbish, having to sit for Moral classes and all. I could sit here and debate all day long whether its beneficial to us or not but I choose not to.

Benefits of Moral Education :
Development of a holistic individual who is balanced, matured and knowledgeable in making rational action and decision towards the establishment of an ethically fair and caring society.

OH em gee, I have to sit here and read all these slides. They come up to about hundreds of slides. And no tips for tomorrow's exam. Great. =.=

I keep telling myself to start on it, but here I am. Blogging ABOUT it. *whispers to self* need to concentrate, Alanna. CONCENTRATE!! STOP BLOGGING.

24th August is a date to remember. I have reasons I would like to keep to myself. So why am I posting it here? Cause I like to read my own posts and remember how I felt when I wrote them. For now, I feel, neutral. Ah, probably because of the test coming up tomorrow. Gosh, then I have Psych Common Test 2 on Thursday. Stress-nye. And I keep reminding myself to stop typing and start reading. =.=

Better go now. I'll never get to it if I keep procrastinating.






Toodles with stress,
Alanna the Banana