You got a deal

I am finally working on my last assignment of the semester. I'm definitely looking forward to the holidays. Thought before the holidays, there are the exams. =S

I went for my first party in Uni. Yes, I know, it's the end of the semester. I went for the Mwac party on Monday. From 8pm to 11.30pm. And surprisingly, there were still students studying in the library till 11. This is scary and it's putting pressure on me. 

Pictures!!! Since I'm not very good at taking pictures myself so I'll just steal the ones I got tagged on Facebook. =)

Moi, Hwei Ming, Katherine and Amelia

Group mates and I were using newspapers to decorate ourselves. We were the hip hop group yo. 

Our bling-bling, earrings and sunglasses yo!

We even performed a small routine after the station games. 

Need I say? GROUP PHOTO!!!

I had so much fun that night I forgot how tired I was. It was indeed a really good night. For now, I gotta focus on the last 3 weeks of uni. And then it's Singapore with my homies!!! =D 

Isn't it so adorable? For more, check out http://mymilktoof.blogspot.com

Toodles with lots of love, 

Alanna the Banana

It all begins

Well, 3 more weeks till the big showdown. Exams are here, after 13 weeks of doing assignments, working my butt off, driving to uni, staying back, crying about how stressful it is, exams ARE FINALLY COMING!

And after that it's the holidays. Cannot wait, seriously.
1. I'm going to Singapore to have my long-awaited holiday with the girls, the guys and the boyfriend. <3
2. I'm going to start working. Yes, I want to work. =)
3. Piano exam is after my finals. Grade 8, I HAVE TO PASS!!
4. It's the holidays, what more can I say? =)

One more assignment to go and it's full gear on the books. 4 textbooks, 2 weeks, I'm worried. I'm not used to finishing up a whole syllabus within 3 months. It's a lot. I don't know how the seniors went through it, but I certainly hope the amount of work I have and will put into really pays off.

Oh, remember one of my new year's resolution is to donate RM500 to charity? I've saved up and I'm going to buy a few stuff for the orphans after my exams. =DD I'm so proud of myself. So, it's time to put on some weight so I can go donate my blood. =)

New week begins tomorrow. I hope I don't fall sick at the rate I'm going. *fingers crossed*


Toodles with love and stress,
Alanna the Banana

A Sudden Moment

I missed how we would hang out after class and talk and laugh. We go for lunch together and we would order good food and I'll be stuffing my face. I miss how we skipped class and we went to OU to catch movies or go shopping together. I miss how when we go for parties, we dress up together and we camwhore. I miss the times when we would go play pool in the middle of class and almost every Friday night at one point. I miss our bitching sessions. I miss how we would comfort each other by making fun of the people we didn't really like. I miss how we were always there for each other. I miss everything. I miss you girls so much that I'm actually tearing. ='(


Toodles with missing the slut, hoe and bitch,
Alanna the Banana

All I Need

It's been awhile since I've posted up something. But here goes nothing.

I used to ask my dad before he went out to see his clients to tell my mother to not scold me. I was afraid of her. I always wanted my dad instead of my mom. Closer to my dad I would say.

I got mad at her for a lot of things. When she forgot to pack me lunch, when she didn't buy me the toy I wanted, when she was late picking me up from school, when she thought that piano was good for me, when she found the love note I was supposed to give my crush, when I just didn't had the way of things. I threw tantrums, I yelled at her, I tore my exercise books, I cried and I tried hitting her with my tiny hands.

I never said sorry to her even after we fight. Never when I was a kid. I never liked my mom then cause all I ever thought was she was here to make my life miserable. No matter how many things she's done for me, I wouldn't say thank you either.

It took me quite a while to figure out everything really. It was only when she fainted that time, then I realized it was not a very nice feeling to lose her. She was my mother. Then I wondered how she felt when I told my dad not to scold me, how she felt when I yelled at her, when I threw tantrums, when I tried to hit her, when I didn't say sorry after a fight, when I told her I didn't like her when I was a kid. I cried that night. She was fine, don't get me wrong, but it made a big impact on me.

She was there for every single of my birthdays. She was there for every concert I performed in. She was there for report card day. She was there when I broke down when I was in a difficult position. She was there when I got heart broken. She was there when I was in the hospital. She was there for me. Always.

Now, I kiss her on the cheek when I come home or when I leave the house. I still hold her hand in shopping malls. I run errands for her when I have the time or when she needs help.  I do get mad at her occasionally but I realize that it is my fault sometimes. When we do get the chance alone, we talk about everything, ranting to her about certain people, telling her the stupid thing I did the other day in uni, about Julius, about my friends, almost everything, not everything, but enough for her to know what's going on in my life.

I can never imagine how life would be without her. I dont know how I'm going to make through Aussie without her. I dont know who I'm going to kiss on the cheek and hug or hold their hand when I need to. I will always love you and need you, mommy. I'm sorry for all the stupid things I've done to make you worry, to make you lose sleep, to make you angry, I'm sorry. But for the rest of the things, I want to thank you. To the moment you gave birth to me, to this very day when you gave me kiss on the cheek and asked me how my night was. I love you, mommy. Happy Mother's Day.


Toodles with tears and love,
Alanna the Banana