Help me, cause I'm drowning

Why do I find myself drowning in sorrow the past month? Everything seems like they are falling apart in all sorts of directions in all their different ways. Crying seems to be the only helpless thing I can do. I find myself getting emotionally weaker and not being able to take things that lightly anymore. My heart aches as I think of those in my mind.

I get upset at the very little things that bother me. I would love to thinks it's because of the damn progesterone running through my veins, making me emotional at all these little things. It's not even about other people anymore. I don't even know why these things happen.

Day by day I live life with such enthusiasm and happiness. That was what it used to be like. Now, day by day I dread going out of the house knowing there are responsibilities I have to carry out. I come back home, instead of being relieved that a day has been a busy one and it's time to relax, I think of the other things I have to do to complete before starting the day once more.

Things aren't exactly improving at home either. I can't please anyone anymore it seems. It bothers me that I used to be a person who went through all her problems with a breeze. Going through big hurdles weren't much of a problem because I used to be confident in myself. Now, I can't even deal with a problem without over thinking about it first.

Everything now seems impossible to get things right. I don't know what to do anymore. If things don't pick up, I might actually say I give up. On everything.

I'll Never Be The Same

Once again, Uni starts. Ugh. Much as I love keeping myself occupied with beneficial activities, I really need a longer break. Oh well, can't wait for the July break! Hopefully I get an entire month off. Please please puh-leeeease!

Off to wall climbing this Wednesday. Won't be taking any photos as usual cause I suck at it.

I noticed I don't blog lengthy posts anymore. =( And no more of those typical irritating scenarios anymore. This is what Uni does to me. I'm becoming an ordinary blogger. No. Oh wait, I am one. Screw it.


Toodles with lave,
Alanna the Banana

Kthxbai

I'm frustrated. With every fucking thing. I'm not the kind of girl you can walk over, thanks. Cause if you wanna do that, you've picked the wrong person. You continue to push my buttons, I swear by the end of the day you'll call me a bitch. I can be one and I've been told I'm pretty good at it.

The way you are

 Totally forgot to blog about Skytrex! It is amazing and fun as the last time I went there. Friends didn't join me this time round though, so I had to make friends. It was kind of tough for me cause apparently people think I'm bitchy on their first impression. Everybody said so, including Pikky and even Mdm. Dorothy. I'm friendly! I smile to people. I really do my best to approach people but sometimes I'm just too shy so I resort to listening to music with my headphones on. Ooops, gone off topic. Anyway, I met a senior, Ming, during the MWAC general meeting. So, she introduced me to her friend, Zhi Min.

We started off with diving ourselves into groups of 5 as we had to car pool, and off we went to Shah Alam. We stopped by a mall to have a quick lunch. So I had uncle K's. Food was alright?

At Uncle K's.

And we started mingling. Meeting new people! =D (The aussies!! =D)

We finally drove to Bukit Cahaya and we took loads of pictures!! My group pictures is below!

Zhi Min, Amalina, Bella, Hwei Ming and I

Group picture! Not exactly the entire group though. 

Amelia, Rhiannon, Zhi Min, Hwei Ming and I put on our harnesses.

Yes, I know. I even posed while I did the Flying Fox. =O

After two hours of doing the obstacles in trees later, we chilled and took pictures!

Amelia and I. She's so nice. =D

And we went home after that. I rushed back home to shower and drove to the bf's house for dinner. Yummy! I had so much fun with these people! I mean MWACkers. They're so nice and friendly and I had so much fun hanging around with them. I have expanded my network, I am so proud of myself. =D 

Toodles with love, 

Alanna the Banana

Winning you back

My long awaited break is FINALLY here! I never thought I would say this now, back when I still had my major long break. (Major Longbreak! Julius, you get what I mean. hur.) but I seriously need a break. After all the assignments, week after week of starring at the computer screen typing and editing, handing up assignments knowing there is nothing else you can do about it anymore. 5 weeks of uni, and I totally need a break. Really, I do.

I watched "How to train a dragon". And it is fantastic. Like Pikky says, it is the most understated cartoon movie of the year. It is really really good. And the dragons are shooooooo cute!

It's so cute, how can you not wanna pinch it's face. Gah~

Adorable!

I wanna have one too! The closest to it, is either I get a reptile or, i get a toy, if I can find it. I think I'll opt for the toy. Uber cute! 

Toodles with love and off with her break, 

Alanna the Banana