We don't always expect the unexpected

And here's the last week of December. I was actually planning to post up a super super long post about the entire year of 2009 and what happened and yadayadayada. December is a delightful month. You're on holiday, you get to do whatever you want and of course, there are occasions. You celebrate birthdays (fine, you get to celebrate birthdays every month, but yeah, birthdays), there's the Mega Sale (ok, not like Malaysia's sale is ever that great, but still, you get things at a slightly lower price), Christmas (so, you spend on presents, but I didn't =D), Boxing day (er, is there anything at all to celebrate?), and finally New Year's Eve, where we all sit down and countdown to the new year.

So with these many celebrations, you start planning. Yes, planning is good. Everything goes well and you are rewarded. If you fail to plan, you plan to fail. However, no matter how much you plan, sometimes, things can go wrong. Or some would say, plans would change. And sometimes, entirely. And THAT is what I hate, but sometimes, you have no choice but to go through it.

Hospitals are depressing. Maybe except for the occasional births, but mainly, depressing. I never liked it when my parents checked me into the hospital for dengue. Hated my entire week there. The walls are all bland and dull. Uniforms of the nurses and other staffs are also muted colours except for the doctors, they get nice, white coats. The smell of blood, vomit, urine, and whole lot of other stuff are constantly around you and you just never seem to get used to it. In the emergency room, you see machines all around. Some hooked to patients and some just waiting to be used on the next patient that comes in. You see boxes of unopened packets of syringes, stacked up and that definitely freaked me out. You walk by patients. Some were resting, some were getting their stitches done, and some covered in blood. Then you walk into the ward and you start hearing laughter, phones ring, busy footsteps and all of a sudden, cries. More like yelling, mourning and crying all at the same time. It all started with a cry of pain, followed by a cry of panic and after a couple of nurses and a doctor and some yelling later, there was a cry of sadness and grief. You shiver and you know what had just happened.

Environments in hospitals aren't like what you see on Grey's or House or Scrubs. Doctors are never like the ones you see on tv. Those you see in the media are actors and actresses and extras, not doctors. You don't see doctors comforting their patients and you don't see anyone stopping the elevators just to make out. It is their job to save lives and not to pity or empathize the patients. So you wanna be a doctor? Be immune to emotions first. Ah, what do I know, I don't plan on going into the medical field anyway. Just ranting.

It is somehow an unspoken thing within a family but everyone understands it. You just keep it to yourself. One person falls sick and all of a sudden, calls are made and the response to coming back home is better than the ones during chinese new year. It is a small family reunion but not for a happy occasion. We sit by and take turns and watch over the sick. Some cry and you cant help but to shed a tear too and offer a hug. Sometimes you feel so helpless that all you could do is call the person and just pat their shoulder or hold their hand without saying a word.

So, everything doesn't always go as planned. And it just sucks. But what can you do? You just somehow bear with all of it and live life.

Make your resolutions, don't plan every single thing out, let life be an adventure. Happy New Year everyone.


Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

And it's our day

Doing house chores and running around like Cinderella seemed a pretty horrible way to start off a morning. Nevertheless, after doing the dishes, taking clothes from the washing machine to dry them in the sun and cleaning the dining table, I finally took a nice cold shower and got dressed. What ran through my mind was what was going to happen later in the afternoon until at night.

I dressed up in the same clothes as I wore before and let my hair down loose, smiling to myself. I got into the car and I smile once more but this time to you. We hung out at the same place, went to the same restaurant and did the things we would usually do, except going to a movie, well, there weren't any tickets left.

The afternoon passed, evening came, then night. You sent me home, kissed me on the cheek and hugged me goodbye and drove off.

It wasn't exactly what I had expected in the afternoon. No, it wasn't more than what I expected. It was what I didn't expect. Honestly, that wasn't the best date I have ever been on, but I felt happy. Words can definitely express how I feel but I rather not type it all out. That picture, keeps me smiling, knowing we are still happy with each other.

Happy seez-mons-sary love!


Toodles with lots of love,
Alanna the Banana

Million Little Stars

Dear readers,

Forgive me for my tiny obsession. =DDDD

One of the many pictures in GQ mag. I so need to buy that issue.

Wet t-shirt competition, he wins them all~

And he has a freaking R8! A white one. HOMG! LAVE~




I'm ogling at the car now.

Awww... That's just sweet

I apologize if I have loads of post about Lautner, like I said, tiny obsession right now. =D Yes, tiny.

All pictures, credits to Just Jared and other gossip sites. =D


Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

In This Dream

I know it's like 3 am right now but I just couldn't really sleep. So I was blog hopping and there I was staring at Sarah's blog and there he was in Sarah's blog. I couldn't help it. I don't fancy the idea of the Twilight series turning into movies. Hmm, I read the books earlier, couldn't help but not like the series. But anyway, I did catch the New Moon. For 2 reasons. To laugh at Edward. And to look at Jacob. Taylor Lautner. <3

*drools*

*sigh*

This is hot. *faints*

And if he is really going out with Taylor Swift, I APPROVE!

Seriously, he is fine. Sarah, you are so right, the lip biting is hot. Sorry love, couldn't help it. =D Forgive me if I can't take my eyes of the screen.


Toodles with a new eye candy,
Alanna the Banana


P.S. you'll always be my eye candy. Lautner is like, a second one. =D

In The Middle Of The Night

It's been quite awhile since I surfed the net. I've been bumming around so much, I don't even lift the cover of my Mac to check Facebook no more. I guess I'm not a Mukabuku addict. =D
Anyway, just wanna make a special shoutout to someone. Though, it is quite a belated one. Better late than never right?

To the youngest (and sluttiest) Kaki in the group,

HAPPY 18th BIRTHDAY

FIONA KEE

I was in the same class with her in Form 1 and I never talked to her much. Except when she first came, I asked her how was Cempaka and asked about my friends there. I really thought she was such a sweet girl. (Girl, don't go all smiling now. Cause I know you are. We all know you're not that 'sweet' =D)

Anyway, time passed and before both of us knew it, we got into college. And there we were, placed in the same class. She stuck with Kat, I stuck to Kavi. Mok, well, he was trying to make his new nickname work but epic phail la. He still got stuck with Mok. hehe.

So this girl, with the new hair colour (you look better with it), still seemed quiet to me. Till one fine day in February, she came clubbing with Kat and I. And there she was, dressed all suitable for clubbing, attitude fierce (and got even fiercer later in the year and worse when she is drunk. =P just had to put that in), and my perspective of her, changed. And now, she's one of the most lovable friends I could ever have.

She was there for me. And I hope I was there for her too even though I know I was basically almost always quite out of the picture. I know this girl, went through one hell of an emotional roller coaster ride and girl, I'm proud of you for making it through. <3 And boy was this girl harsh with her comments and opinions. She may be so but you know she has nothing but good intentions. She does, however give comments on unknown people, ok, not that good of an intention but they are sure as hell funny to listen to. =D Call her a fashionista people, cause she really has good eye for it. She does the FINEST DIY outfits, using the simplest things and making it look like you bought it from an expensive retail store. No kidding, she's good. And she's pursuing in the fashion industry. We're so proud of you fifi, we know you're good and you can definitely be one of the best! We're supporting you babe. Oh, did I mention she looks like a party girl? Alright, no need to state the obvious but those of you who might not know her, you take one look at her and your brain starts on the primacy effect (only psych students would get this, i guess?). She may look like one party girl, ok, she is one, but she is a nerd. Yeah, she is. I don't wanna get started on how she is in college. I sit next to her, I know. =D She's fantastic in Econs and this is why she is going into Marketing. Fashion marketing that is. Though, she hates Accounts. lol What I love about her? She funny, smart, hot, understanding, a great friend and other nice things I'm secretly jealous of. I love you Fiona and I know you love me too. xoxo I'll see you soon slut. 


 Toodles with love, 
Alanna the Banana