Definitely not the last pair of pants

Revamp on the blog is going to take some time. HOMG, it is such a pain to get the right combination of colours. So, don't expect any changes SO SOON.

I don't know what to write about so I'm just going to leave you guys with these pictures.

 More from My Milk Toof

Anyway, back to my law book. Bleh. 

Toodles with love, 

Alanna the Banana

Sometimes I feel lost

So I'm not feeling all that good today, but I decided to do something about it and let's see how it goes. I'm going to do some psychoanalysis on myself. Less on the analysis though. Psychoanalysis, is basically, saying whatever that comes into your mind to the therapist and the therapist will do analysis on your impulsive thoughts and feelings and relate them back to your past or your unconscious mind. So right now, I'm just going to type out whatever that comes into mind.

•  I was thinking of how to start this post in the shower.
• Sometimes I think I try too hard.
• Julius just texted me and I really think I'm a terrible girlfriend.
• My retainers are kind of annoying. 
• I can't believe I got upset over something small and that was not how I wanted to say goodbye.
• I'm such a terrible girlfriend.
• I don't know why I want to please people so much. 
• But then again, I really don't care what people think of me.
• I can't believe he can tolerate so much shit.
• I need a social life cause I lost it all ever since I went to uni.
• I need to study more, cause I've been neglecting it for about 2 months now. 
• Also, I must come up with a study plan to get my 70% average or more for Melb Uni. 
• Where the hell am I going to stay in Melbourne? AHHHHHHHHH
• They're probably going to hate me because I'm another Malaysian coming into their country.
• I'm going to miss everybody back home.
• If I don't go to bed soon, I swear I'll look like Taylor Momsen and her huge panda eyes. 
• My carnation is dead. 
• My dad offered me wine but I said no cause I wanted to sleep, guess who's here typing now?
• I taste tap water. 
• I don't get why I cry so easily. What the hell happened to me?
• I learnt how to feel again that's what happened. 
• To all the freaking boys I've dated in the past, you're all scumbags. 
• Maybe it was me. Maybe it was always me. 
• I have the urge to buy new bras. 
• If it was me, how can someone stay with me for so long or rather how can I stay with someone for more than a year!?!?!?!
• So not my fault.
• What the fuck are the neighbours doing? Playing loud music at night. Jebus, I'm trying to sleep here. Well, technically not sleeping NOW, but you know, for later. 
• There's a bug on my screen. Ew. 
• It's quite catchy. I think it's "Dynamite" by whatshisname. 
• I'm going to get sick in Melb so often. I hate the drastic weather changes. 
• I should really throw that flower away.
• I should really sleep.
• I want a dog. They are so adorable really. 
• Or maybe a cat. They're really cute too. 
• Or maybe it's just the photographs that make me want to have a pet. Cause the consequences of having a pet is a disaster. 
• My internet connection sucks.
• He's not replying my texts. Oh right, flying cockroach in his room. Thank god I'm here.
• My shoulder blade hurts like shit. 
• I hate my eyebags and this is why i should go to sleep. 
• I'm terrible. 
• Oh my gosh, it's my fault, and I feel so bad. 

So so, that was within half an hour. I really need my sleep. So no analysing, just the psycho part. I really should straighten my head up.

Toodles with sleepiness, 

Alanna the Banana

Always proud of you

Holidays have officially begun! It doesn't mean I can sit back and chill and not do a damn thing about anything, I still have to keep up with my studies cause exams are in a month. Great.

I spent my Saturday with Julius. Saturday is our day. We went to catch Wall Street at night. I must say it was good. My financial management knowledge was put into application. I understood what they were talking about and I was explaining things to Julius. It got us talking about the economy and what shares were and I gave him the basic knowledge on supply and demand. I feel proud for sharing my knowledge with him, and he shares what he learns with me too.

Shia was great! Though he's grown up and he's been playing more matured roles which I think he's doing a great job with them, I still see him as the Even Stevens kid. He has definitely grown out of the comedy side, venturing into the action movies with strong characters, getting the chances to act with accomplished actors like his co-star in Wall Street. Michael Douglas, as usual, fantastic. I even got sucked into his speech he gave in the movie. It has been a while since he acted due to the throat cancer. Hope all goes well with his treatment so we can see more movies with him in it.

I am off to bed. Awfully tired and I definitely need to catch up on sleep with the assignments all finally done.


Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

It's just filled with shit

Life can really be hard on you. One moment you find yourself happy living it, and one moment you find yourself struggling to keep up with it.

When you are delighted with everything in your life, there's always that thought in your mind that you wish everyday, everything could be just like that moment you are in. Friends, boyfriend or girlfriend, family, school,everything is just the way you want it. Of course, nothing ever does stay that good. One way or another, life shifts its course and you become one of those people wishing that it could be like that moment when everything was just perfect to you. You then also wish you could undo that yearning of yours when you were a kid, wanting to grow up faster. You wish you could still be a kid, being carefree and just do what you're told to. No problems, no hurdles, nothing but just your colouring book and your dolls.

Nevertheless, you have to wake up and realise that there is no point wishing back for the past when you can do something about it to make it better. You realise that you can't undo the process of growing up and besides, colouring books and dolls, you get bored of it after a while. You realise that there is no point in still wanting to be a kid because if you wanted to be carefree, you can just do so, right now.

There is always hope within us that we can always overcome hurdles in life. People put that hope in us, making us believe that anything is possible with just your will to carry on and a little luck in hand.

Life is full of shit. But it's the people in it that makes it all worth it.



Toodles with love,
Alanna the Banana

It does matter

The urge to blog has returned. I still hope people are still reading my blog cause it died for a month. Anyway, I've been getting a lot of spam. In my comments and my chatbox. I don't get it, I didn't use to have this problem a year or two years ago, so why now? They kind of piss me off actually. Another thing that pisses me off is also how obnoxious people can be.

Putting that aside, I'm thinking of changing my blog skin, but I'll only do that when I'm done with my marketing essay which I am currently, at this moment, working on.  Of course I lost my concentration and decided to just blabber out a few things on my blog so I have at least something to write about.  You guys will hear me talking about this assignment for at least a few days, but I promise you the whining will stop on Thursday because that's the due date. I'm thinking of bright colours for the new skin and I've been going through a lot of colour schemes and combinations based on my preference so hopefully I find a really pretty one so I can modify the skin. Be prepared for bright colours. =)

Also, I was thinking of going into video blogging. I'm not sure how it will work out though. I actually tried to talk to my camera, just rambling about things and it is much more difficult than I expected it to be. Wow, it takes editing and to write a script, I'm not joking. I wanted to talk about make up and I found myself jumbling my words up. It takes quite a lot of work so I'm not sure if I'm ready to go into it yet. =S I might give it a shot. One day.

Toodles with love, as always,
Alanna the Banana

Saying hello to a new world

See, I promised soon! =)

Just went out for dinner at Oversea Restaurant in KL and it was absolutely delicious. And what more, Julius paid. For his whole family. Cause he got his first paycheck after working so hard in Coffee Bean. The bill came out to RM250 but nonetheless, he paid for 7 of us. Thank you. =)

Yes, another picture of us. 

Once again, I did the same look as the last post. But this wasn't very dark though. It was actually lighter and I decided to use my liquid eyeliner from Elianto and it works wonders. I don't think you can see it in the picture but I did a tinge of sea green as like an outline of the eyeliner. Julius told me it looked like moss on my eyes but I absolutely loved it because I finally thought I could pull off the colour green. 

Yes, I have been talking about what I did for my make up. I am beginning to take up more interest in make up because I believe it does wonders for you and it definitely boosts up a girl's confidence. So you guys would be hearing more of the make up stuff, at least until I get bored of it. Also, I just ordered a bunch of stuff from ELF. And I hope they will be coming within the next 3 weeks or so. I can't wait to use the brushes and the lipstick I ordered! I will definitely blog about that when I've received my items. 

Until then.

Toodles with love, 

Alanna the Banana

A night to remember

I know it's been a month since I blogged, but I've been really busy with work. I mean, assignments, and then test and more assignments on the way. It's already middle of September and it means exam is coming. Great.

Yesterday while everybody else was enjoying themselves at the Monash Annual Ball, I was out with Julius. Oh yeah, we decided not to go for the ball cause it was a little out of our budget since we already splurged on something HUGE! Instead, we out for a nice, romantic "Special-occasion-dinner-with-no-special-occassion-to-begin-with" dinner. We went to Souled Out at Desa Sri Hartamas and we actually got a table for two at the balcony. It was so sweet of them to reserve a table for us there. It just made our night more special.

And that is Julius with his Beef Noodles. Look at that face. =)

Me!! With simple make up and blow-dried hair. 

On an off note here, I did a really simple look which I've been practising on for quite a few days before I went out that night. The look was so simple, I ended up buying more products to make it look simple. had to buy a pencil eyeliner so I could smudge the sides and I bought a smudge brush for it. I gotta improve on the make up. Bleh. Anyway, the top is a small dress from Paper Box Couture, red and slashed. Yummy. =)

Back to where we were, I ordered the Prawn Aglio Olio, which turned out drier than people would normally expect but it was still good nonetheless. With small talk, the environment, and everything else around us, it really felt like it was our first date. And he even gave me flowers. My favourite of course, Carnations. 

The both of us. <3 

We went back to my place and watched The Bounty Hunter on my lappy and he went home after we had our small talk. It's been a while since we had this kind of outing and it made me really excited like a high school girl having got to say hi to her crush. 

It's lovely isn't it?

So that was my "Ball" night. Now it's just back to doing assignments, which I am quite reluctant to start but I have to get it done before I start struggling before the dateline. =S Oh oh oh, before I forget, remember I said we didn't want to go to the ball cause we splurged on something HUGE? =D

OH YEAH BABY!! We're going to Paramore on the 19th of October! I paid so much but it's free seating. Pfft. Oh well, IT'S PARAMORE!! I don't care if you guys think they suck cause they are in the Pop Rock genre, THEY KNOW HOW TO ROCK! I'm so excited!!!

I promise to blog soon. 

Toodles with lots of love, 

Alanna the Banana